Schizophrenia😭My son Kyle! R.I.P. within Gods arm

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💝This is my very much loved handsome son Kyle. He passed away on April 17, 2014. You are always in my heart Bud!!! I love you!!! 💝 My son suffered from schizophrenia and committed suicide at the age of 19. I feel I need to honor him by spreading awareness. Most people don't understand schizophrenia. They believe that a schizophrenic is just a "crazy" person. Schizophrenia is actually a brain disease in addition to being a mental illness. Please educate yourself! Thank you!!! ❤

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jenniferf76 @anniea44 @daliasg @heathershu @justjessi @joanna98 @kewpiedoll @mary447 @paintedjezebel @sjimenez74 @thehouse @tanstaafl @thelovelywife @vanadzor 👼 This is my son Kyle!!!

Jun 25Reply

eliteapplause @jenniferf76 Oh he is so good looking!!

Jun 25Reply

tanstaafl Very handsome young man. My heart is with you and your family.

Jun 25Reply

paintedjezebel He was very handsome and I want to thank you for telling your story here and keeping him alive in all of our hearts..😘

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @tanstaafl @mary447 Thank you so much ladies!!! 😙😙😙

Jun 25Reply

sjimenez74 @jenniferf76 - he is such an angel - 👼 very handsome - our lord savior will continue bringing you comfort and peace in your life for you and your family ~ sandy

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @paintedjezebel Thank you so much! That is one of the nicest things I've had someone say to me!! I will continue telling his story and continue my quest to bring awareness to many!!! 😙💕💓

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @sjimenez74 Thank you so much! You ladies are so wonderful and have such big hearts!!! 😙💞

Jun 25Reply

miami_wife may he rest in peace hun

Jun 25Reply

justjessi @jenniferf76 thank you for sharing this with us. I hope that our understanding, strength & prayers help in some small way. 💋 #xojessi

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @justjessi Thank you so much Jessi..I hope you are doing well tonight...😙💖💕🌻

Jun 25Reply

anniea44 @jenniferf76 what a handsome boy. He is always with you. I'm heartbroken for you. ❤️

Jun 25Reply

daliasg Oh he is so handsome. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My son is 6 and I can not even imagine. You are in my thoughts. I think raising awareness is so important and what a noble cause for you to be embarking on as a way to honor the memory of your son.

Jun 25Reply

shopnextstore What a cutie pie! Thanks Jennifer for sharing~ This is such a tragedy. Again, I am so sorry for your pain. Prayers for continued strength sent up for your whole family. I'm always here if you want to talk sweetskins. XOXO

Jun 25Reply

kewpiedoll Beautiful outside and inside. I bet anything he had a big heart to match his big smile🌹❤️🌹

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @daliasg @thehouse Thank you so much ladies!!! I hope that someday soon there will be a cure or at least better treatment!!! 😙😙😙

Jun 25Reply

jenniferf76 @kewpiedoll Thank you so much and yes he had a very big heart! He was so generous and family meant so much to him!!! 😙😙😙

Jun 25Reply

kden_wallace Jennifer, my heart goes out to you...What a handsome young man! I lost a little girl on April 16th, 22 years ago from a brain tumor, no parent should ever have to let go of their children, it's a grief that no one should have to bear. Always know that you have so many that care and that keep you and your family in their thoughts and prayers...I am now one of them! Continue to share and continue to talk about your handsome young man, he will always stay close to your heart! Much love and prayers are being sent your way!🙏❤️😘Kathy

Jun 26Reply

jrtharcrow What an handsome son! Sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine the pain. I will keep you and your family in my prayers as you spread awareness in his honor. May you have wonderful dreams every night of him. 💜💜💜💜

Jun 26Reply

sjpaque @jenniferf76 - my thoughts are with you and your family

Jun 26Reply

wlew @jenniferf76 So very sorry

Jun 27Reply

katz2 My condolences.😔

Jun 27Reply

tamarismom Very handsome young man who is definitely resting in God's arms. God bless you and your family.

Jun 27Reply

poshnotpricey May you find inner peace knowing his spirit is by yourside

Jun 28Reply

jenniferf76 @poshnotpricey Thank you so much! I feel him, hear him , & smell him near me each day!! 💞🌻🌈👼

Jun 28Reply

poshnotpricey @jenniferf76 my heart cries for you i make angel earrings too dont know if thats what u wnt tho of curse his spirit is close to his mom!

Jun 28Reply

jenniferf76 @poshnotpricey I would 💖 angel wing earrings but it depends on what metal you use. My ears are super sensitive. Do you make bracelets too by any chance??

Jun 28Reply

heathershu He is very handsome and my heart goes out to you and your family. You are very strong and I will continue to keep you in my prayers

Jun 28Reply

jenniferf76 @heathershu Thank you so much!!! I miss him terribly but I feel him with me always!!!

Jun 28Reply

jenniferf76 @heathersgems

Jun 28Reply

heathershu 🌸🌹🌼🌻🌷🌞😘

Jun 28Reply

heathersgems <3

Jun 28Reply

jenniferf76 @kdwallace There isnt really much I can say about the loss of your child other than I am so very sorry and I know how much it hurts! That is very heartbreaking to here!! I know your daughter and my son are in heaven! They are our beautiful angels!!! I know a few others who have lost their child. My ex in laws being 2 of them. My ex mother in law who I am still close with told me that you never forget, but the days get easier to get through as time goes on. She did say that holidays are the most difficult. Thank you so much for taking the time to read about my son. It means so much to me and I am deeply touched. I will continue to share his story and spread awareness until my day comes when God calls me. Again, I am so so sorry for your loss and thank you!!!! 😙💖💞💓

Jun 30Reply

marilynn54 @jenniferf76 How heartbreaking,so sorry for your loss.Schizophrenia is an awful disease so often taking the best and brightest.My very best wishes and prayers for you and your family.

Jun 30Reply

jenniferf76 @marilynn54 Thank you so much for your kind words and for taking the time to read about my son!! It means so much to me knowing I am getting his story out and hopefully spreading awareness!!! 😙💖

Jun 30Reply

marilynn54 @jenniferf76 Absolutely, mental health issues need be be recognized and given the needed attention and coverage.The other big issue is to reduce the stigma attached to these illnesses.

Jun 30Reply

jenniferf76 @marilynn54 I agree! There is a big problem with stigma! There seems to be this taboo when it comes to talking about mental health as well. I am hoping to educate more people and hopefully all that will lessen. It's not an easy task especially since most people don't have the curiosity and they just don't want to take the time to learn. I am also advocating for more research so hopefully soon there will be better treatment options and maybe even a cure someday! My sons sister (different mother) was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. The same thing has just happened to her that happened to my son, the meds she is on stopped working for her! She sees a new doctor this week. I pray all the time that she doesn't end up like my son. Their father committed suicide 4 1/2 yrs ago. He too suffered from mental illness. This happens far too often.

Jun 30Reply

sereniag What a beautiful young man, it's so sad to hear something like this. My heart goes out to your family.

Jul 03Reply

jenniferf76 @sereniag Thank you so much!!

Jul 03Reply

katiegirl29 I just wanted to tell you how very truly sorry I am. I know "I'm sorry" doesn't even begin to cover it, but I truly am, from the bottom of my heart. I Iost my little sister to suicide a little over a year ago. I don't think people understand the different kind of grief a suicide death brings, as opposed to an illness or accident. I believe you can start to move on & heal more easily, from the latter, but when it is a suicide, it leaves you with so much guilt and questions and what ifs... It's a whole different kind of pain, at least to me. It is a grief no family should ever ever have to deal with, especially any mother. I admire your strength at being able to share your story so soon. I can still barely speak about it. Wishing you and yours all of the peace, strength and happiness this world has to offer. Suicide can do crazy things to a family, if you let it, so keep yours extra close. It's nobody's fault & I'm sure you all feel the same pain. My deepest condolences.

Jul 04Reply

jenniferf76 @katiegirl29 Thank you so so much! I am so tremendously sorry about your sister! It breaks my heart to know that suicide happens everyday. You are so right about suicide being a different kind of grief and pain. We all have the what ifs and the feeling that maybe you could have done something to prevent it. It is very difficult dealing with that. It does upset me when I talk about it, but I feel like I need to honor my son by sharing his story and spreading awareness. To be honest, sometimes I still can't believe he is gone. I think a part of me is still in denial. Whatever stage of grief I am in I know I will never get over it. I have had a lot of difficult things to deal with throughout my life, but nothing could ever compare to losing my son!! Thank you again for your kind words and for taking the time to read about my son!!! 😙😙💖💖🌻🌻🌈🌈

Jul 04Reply

jenniferf76 @jimsprincess Thank you so much!!! 🌻🌈

Jul 04Reply

katiegirl29 Thank you...it really does mean something :-) & it's a small group of people in this world that can understand, thank God! You are correct, of course you will never get over it! You are his mother! No one would ever expect you to. And I still do not believe it is real myself, so I know what you mean. I was very lucky in that I had people reach out to me that had the same thing happen, people I barely knew, didn't know and people I hadn't spoken to in 20 years. Just knowing that there were other people out there who understood the grief, when I thought nobody possibly could & felt so so alone, really did help me. It was through them that I was finally able to at least get out of bed again. Eventually... The best advice Ive ever gotten was that time takes time...cliche, I know, but I do not know of a truer statement... It's so fantastic that you share his story and create awareness. These disorders are REAL! I know, too well, that some people think it's all in their heads & they should just "get over it," but the reality of it is, is that these disorders are a true physical and mental condition that isn't willful & is extremely hard to get under control. I seriously commend you & your plight. I don't know you at all, but if you ever need anything, to scream, to cry, to talk, to ask why, please message me. I won't be of any help really, haha, I don't understand any of it myself, but someone listening sometimes helps... I do all of the above frequently. I call them "sister nights." I believe they can hear us! You'll see the signs. (No, I'm not totally crazy :-)) My heart goes out to you & your family. Once again wishing you strength, PEACE and happiness. Xoxoxo

Jul 04Reply

jenniferf76 @katiegirl29 You're not "crazy". My son has visited me a few times. He has also visited his sisters, his brother (my 14 yr old), my mom, & my sister. When I first heard the news (my mom found him hanging from a tree in my parents front yard) I was in complete shock. I barely remember anything from the first several days or so. At his viewing I stayed by his side the entire time, never letting go. My brother and someone else had to pull me off and away from my son and my brother carried me out to the truck. I slept a lot after that. After a few days of sleeping I knew I had to try to pull myself together for the sake of my other 2 boys. I knew they needed me and my 14 yr old was also grieving. So for them, I got up. I didn't really want to talk to hardly anyone for several weeks though, only my immediate family. We stayed with my parents for almost a month and a half. I of course wasn't ok to go home and my parents needed us as well. They are very devestated over it. My son was very close to them. I really wanted to stay with them longer, but we needed to get back home. We live in TX and they live in FL. They also have a home in VA. We are going to be moving to VA this month. We really need to be close to our family and all of our family is on the East Coast. It has been a real struggle to stay strong, it's not easy by any means. I just know what I have to do. I still cry throughout the day at random moments and I cry at night while in bed. I try not to let my boys see me cry, especially my 4 yr old because he doesn't know what's going on. He is autistic too so he would not be able to understand even if I explained it to him. My 14 yr old has been my rock, he is much stronger than I am. He and my oldest niece are doing research about schizophrenia. They are both such bright children. When my niece told me she has been researching it I just about cried (I'm her fav aunt by the way, she's 16). It made me so happy that she has been taking time to do that. Now she will be able to educate people too. I know advocating for awareness and more research is going to be a long tough journey especially since it has affected me in such a devestating way, but it is one I must take for the honor of my son. It makes me feel in a sense that his loss will bring something good for others. And my son loved to help people, he was very kind and generous. I love to help people as well so I must do this. And yes I am crying inside and holding back the tears on the outside ( my little one is sitting next me) while typing this. I hope that your "sister nights" bring you comfort and peace. Again I am terribly sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family!! And I appreciate you allowing me to message you when needed. I am so very thankful and blessed to have wonderful people in my life!! You can always message me as well. As you can tell I sure don't mind talking, but I also love to listen. May God grant you strength, love, comfort, & peace!!! 😙😙💖💖🌻🌻🌈🌈

Jul 04Reply

sassysuzzy God bless you Sweet Mother. It's a loss like no other.

Jul 05Reply

jenniferf76 @sassysuzzy Thank you so much!!

Jul 05Reply

beansmama19 🙏🙏GOD BLESS YOU

Jul 05Reply

backporchdealz 💖💕Thoughts and prayers are with you sweetie.. Same age as my oldest daughter and my heart breaks for you💐

Jul 05Reply

jenniferf76 @tamiller @valorieann Thank you so much!! I miss him so much it hurts!!

Jul 05Reply

melodicmistress My heart breaks for you as a mom but, life is very precious and I believe that nothing is random. Although it hurts here on earth he is with you and your family spiritually. Stay in faith and God WILL help you if you believe. My thoughts and prayers are with you my new friend and I will pray for your strength and healing. He's beautiful. Memories are always comforting. Smile when you think of him💓🐝🙏👼

Jul 06Reply

jenniferf76 @bholiday Thank you for your kindness and such sweet words. I know he is an angel in Gods arms now!!! He now has eternal peace. Thank you so much again!!!

Jul 06Reply

melodicmistress You are in my prayers my lady. 🙏 Stay in faith👼

Jul 06Reply

leonajoe I'm so sorry for your loss. Just think from now on you have a very handsome angel. My prayers to you and your family.

Jul 06Reply

wlew @jenniferf76 I am so very sorry

Jul 07Reply

beanbag @jenniferf76 Jennifer I'm sorry for you loss. I can only imagine and I'm sure I'm no where close to knowing who you must feel. God bless you. How wonderful of you to share your story and help others understand better about this disease. 💞💞

Jul 07Reply

jenniferf76 @beanbag Thank you so much!! You are very kind!!!

Jul 07Reply

jenniferf76 @kmb42 Thank you so much for sharing this!! It means the world to me to get the word out about schizophrenia!!! 😙😙😙🌈🌹🌻

Jul 07Reply

kmb42 I know someone who struggles with it and has for years...I think he is about 40 yrs old now....he gets better then falls back again. It so sad. He is so so so smart. He was studying to be a doctor when it presented itself in his late 20's.

Jul 07Reply

jenniferf76 Omgoodness, that is horrible!! It is a very difficult illness to live with. I can't even imagine what it must be like. Unfortunately my sons meds stopped working for him. He has a teenage sister who was just recently diagnosed with it and her meds already stopped working for her. She also cuts herself. She carved my sons name into her body. I pray that there will someday soon be better treatment options and eventually a cure. There are over 2 million people who suffer from this terrible disease, statistics wise!! Possibly many more unaccounted for.

Jul 07Reply

noy2312 @jenniferf76 my heartfelt condolences. We lost a friend just this Thursday. The last time we saw him was Sunday and all I can remember is his smile and gentle ways. And it really affected all of us and greatly reminded us that Life sis short. Our lives is like a vapor. Here today and gone tomorrow. My prayers are with you and your family. Losing a loved one is hard.

Jul 08Reply

paperrose Oh My😢 Just saw this listing. I am so sorry for your loss😢 As a mom who has a son, I am so saddened by this. Much prayer for you😘💐

Jul 09Reply

jenniferf76 @paperrose Thank you so so much!! It has been extremely difficult. I am very grateful to have become part of this wonderful pm community. It does help occupy my mind some and I have met so many amazing women, but it also helps me spread the word about schizophrenia. Thank you again for being so kind!! 😙🌈🌻🌹

Jul 09Reply

blingnthings I am so sorry for your loss, but what a wonderful thing you're doing by sharing and teaching others. God bless.

Jul 11Reply

jenniferf76 @blingnthings Thank you so much for your sweet and caring words!! I truly appreciate you taking the time to read about my son!! 😙🌈🌹🌻💖

Jul 11Reply

gretchen42 My very deepest condolences. A former co-worker lost his 22 year old son the exact same way about 11 years ago. You're doing a wonderful and generous thing by turning this tragedy into an opportunity to spread awareness. Hugs to you, sweet lady.

Jul 13Reply

breanna5568 @jenniferf76 I'm so sorry for your loss. Mental illness is so prevalent, so difficult to work through... certainly not talked about enough. My heart goes out to you.

Jul 13Reply

jenniferf76 @ceebees_closet @gretchen42 Thank you so much for the encouraging kind words and for taking the time to read this!!! I am currently reading a book titled "Surviving Schizophrenia" which is one that my son read while hospitalized. I am trying to learn everything there is to know about this illness so I am better equipped to educate others. As they say "knowledge is power" right? Hopefully I can help end the stigma attached to mental illnesses so others are more sympathetic and willing to help instead of thinking untrue things about the mentally ill. Gretchen, it truly and deeply saddens me to hear or know of others who have ended their life. I am hopeful that there will be better treatment options available soon. Thank you again for reading my sons story!! 😙🌈🌻🌹💕

Jul 13Reply

jenniferf76 @breanna5568 Thank you so much!!! And no it sure isn't talked about enough. Those who don't understand it sometimes are afraid of it and those who have a mental illness or have someone close to them with a mental illness can be afraid to speak of it because of what others say and think about it. My son was diagnosed at age 4 with bipolar disorder and adhd, the schitzophrenia at age 18. His illnesses taught me how to not judge others, you don't know their situation. It's a lesson that so many others need to learn.

Jul 13Reply

jjaquess I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words to that can help soothe a heart suffering from this kind of loss. Many suffer from mental illness & not enough is done to help. I would be honored to share.

Jul 14Reply

sparker1966 I truly understand your pain. My brother also passed, he was 49 but it's none the less painful. He too suffered with it. He left behind my nephew who is now 19.

Jul 14Reply

redheadesign @jenniferf76 my prayers are with you,.. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son!!

Jul 14Reply

breanna5568 @jenniferf76 I totally agree with you. It seems like often mental illness still has a stigma that it is a choice, rather than a disease. What a courageous life your son must have led, and what a strong woman you must be.

Jul 14Reply

maxxmara @jenniferf76 😢💐

Jul 16Reply

theresab @jenniferf76 may god bless him he's taken him to heaven with the angels where he is at peace. May The Lord walk beside you today and always and know that your boy is in a happy place looking down on you smiling letting you know that he is ok and wants you to be happy and at peace with yourself. 🙏

Jul 16Reply

theresab @imanimom we need some prayers for this family.

Jul 16Reply

mauishopgirl I'm so sorry for your loss. And yes, awareness is so important about many things people hide in life. You never know when your sharing will help someone else. I have had suicide in my family as well. Hugs & prayers to you....

Jul 17Reply

sweetie21 ❌⭕️❌⭕️

Jul 17Reply

swissmistress He's very handsome indeed! Bless you and your family and may your burdens be lifted!💗💗💗💗

Jul 17Reply

jenniferf76 @theresab @mauishopgirl @sweetie21 @swissmistress Thank you ladies so much for taking the time to read about my son and my quest. The past few days have become very difficult for me as I have come to the full realization that my son is gone. Part of me had been in denial this whole time. I am now slipping further into depression. Don't worry, I am NOT suicidal by any means, I have 2 other boys who really need me here. I just don't feel like doing anything except cry. I am a firm believer in God and I know my son is in Heaven and he is at peace. I just miss so much, words can't even express the pain I feel. I am also dealing with dibilitating health issues of my own and I have added stress because we are packing to move from TX back home to VA to be close to our family. Packing isn't going as fast as we'd like. I will still try my best to honor my son and try to help others by spreading awareness and educating as many as I can. Right now I'm not so strong, but I know God will help me make it through each day! Thank you again ladies!!! It honestly means so much to me that you took the time to stop and read my sons story. It helps spread awareness!!!! 😙😙😙

Jul 17Reply

sweetie21 Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow. ❌⭕️❌⭕️ warm hugs sent to you sweets! 🙏 praying for you!

Jul 17Reply

imanimom 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 it's a condition that you won't understand unless you stop and deal with the situation. God rest his youthful soul 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Jul 17Reply

bre5743 @jenniferf76 Oh Jennifer, I am so sorry! My heart aches for you 😔 a very handsome young man! My Prayers go out to you on this terrible loss. Welcome to Poshmark and Thank you so much for sharing your heartache to educate people on this illness/disease. God Bless you hun 🙏

Jul 17Reply

jenniferf76 @bre5743 Thank you for your kind hearfelt words a d for stopping to read my sons story. It's so hard to put what I'm feeling into words. All the things I have said about how I feel really doesn't compare. I just pray to God for the strength to get through each day.

Jul 17Reply

jenniferf76 @shoogal82 Thank you so much for your uplifting and kindhearted words. It has been very difficult. I have been blessed to meet so many terrific women on here who's words of caring help me carry on with spreading awareness! Thank you again! I deeply appreciate you taking time to read my sons story!! 😙

Jul 17Reply

bre5743 @jenniferf76 You are so welcome hun and being a Mother of a young man myself I cannot even imagine the pain you live with. I know there's a lot of words we can all say but that does not bring your Kyle back and you can try to stay strong but the pain never goes away. That is the reason why I will continue to Pray for that Lord to wrap his arms around you daily to comfort you and help ease your pain. I know I will continue to Pray for you. 🙏❤️

Jul 17Reply

healingstone I'm so sorry for your loss. 🌾

Jul 17Reply

charmcity Hi, I just wanted to take a moment to express my sympathy for your loss. I couldn't just pass over this listing and not reach out to you. My older brother and several other close friends have suffered with mental illness, so I can understand a fraction of what that means. Best wishes to you and your family! xoxo

Jul 17Reply

jenniferf76 @sunkistchild Thank you so much! I'm really glad you didn't overlook this!! I am trying so hard to spread awareness, telling everyone I know and meet about this disease and mental health in general. It is a huge problem that a lot of times gets overlooked, hidden, & even shunned. I hope more people will take even just a few moments out of their busy lives to learn about this and maybe even decide they would like to help make a difference. The misconceptions about the mentally ill needs to stop! I will be praying for your family, especially your brother, and I as always I will continue praying for those who suffer from mental illness. Thank you again!!! 😙💖

Jul 17Reply

nursenema I am so very sorry for your loss. Bless you!!

Jul 18Reply

cokitos_closet Love & Prayers sent to you from Texas Stay strong posh sister!! Your angle is at peace now. 💕💕💕👼

Jul 18Reply

jenniferf76 @nursenema @cokitos_closet Thank you so much!! Prayers are always welcomed and right now they are definately needed. I am deeply touched that you would take the time to read and comment here. I am very appreciative!!! Thank you again!!!! 😙💖🌈🌻🌹

Jul 18Reply

erikagannon My family is from balto as well. Small world. My heart and prayers are with u !!

Jul 18Reply

nursenema My dear, fellow, Mother- I have 4 children, my oldest is 19. My heart breaks for you. But, reading your posts reminds me of the strength that the human spirit possesses. I am so glad you have your other 2 beautiful boys. And I'm sure that you also now have an Angel watching over you. Thank YOU for taking the time to respond.

Jul 18Reply

jenniferf76 @erikagannon Thank you so much!! I truly appreciate it!!! And yes it is a small world. I was born in Mercy Hospital and so was my 2 oldest boys. My mom worked there for 21 yrs. My husband wouldn't be too happy if you sent me your whole closet. We are getting ready to move from TX to VA to be closer to our family. My husband said that I'm supposed to be getting rid of stuff not bringing more in. He is right, but I've been depressed between losing my son and just getting diagnosed with charcot marie tooth disease which is a type of genetic peripheral neuropathy. My neurologist told me last week that my legs are getting worse ( I already figured they were) & that I am going to need a housekeeper because my illness is very dibilitating. I am terrified of losing the use of my legs, mostly because I have an autistic 4 yr old son to care for and I want to be able to run around and play with him (I can't actually run, I lost that ability awhile ago). I told my husband that I'm shopping because I am trying to find a way to help myself feel better. I never use to wear dresses or skirts until just recently and I think that is part of the making myself feel better too. I know my son wants me to be happy, not depressed, but losing a child is a loss like no other. Until last week part of me was still in denial, but now with the full realization that my baby is gone and never coming back, I have been having difficulty just getting up to even take a shower. I am really sorry about this long message!! Thank you so much again for taking the time to read this. 😙😙💖🌈🌻🌹

Jul 18Reply

erikagannon I understand mire than u know. I'm here always

Jul 18Reply

polu2 I am so extremely sorry for your loss. I shared this in hopes of spreading the awareness of schizophrenia. I took a psychology class this past fall and learned a lot about illnesses such as schizophrenia and I just hope more people will understand it better because it is a serious issue that isn't addressed enough. Once again, my deepest condolences.

Jul 18Reply

karolk @jenniferf76 so sorry for your loss , it is a wonderful way to remember and honor him :) keep all the good memories of him in your heart

Jul 19Reply

dogsandwine24 I am so sorry for your loss. It is very admirable and strong of you to share this with all of us. You're an inspiration to everyone

Jul 19Reply

blueskygazer i'm so sorry for your loss :( i'm also a mother...you're a strong person. keep it up.

Jul 19Reply

closetenvy2 @jenniferf76 I'm SO sorry! I can't imagine what you're going through. My sister-in-law has it and has been missing for over a year. We hope she's alive but are losing hope. Sadly, she has 4 kids that miss her. I'll pray that you find peace in knowing that he's finally with God and no longer suffering from this horrible disease. Whether you feel him or not, he is with you. Every time you hear a song he liked or smell a cologne he wore or something similar, that's him. My nephew drowned at 8 years old, and there are times ( after almost 20 years) that I just break out crying. I know that he's with me in those moments, and I feel a peace come over me. Try to look for those moments and try to enjoy them. Talk to him every chance you get. Love you! 😊

Jul 20Reply

jenniferf76 @mswanson502 I am so terribly sorry to hear about your sister in law. I will pray that God guides her back home if she is still alive. It is a very horrible and often tragic disease. I really have felt, heard, and smelled the presence of my son as have several other family members. I talk to my son everyday, several times a day. I have a necklace that is made of blown glass containing some of his ashes in it. I only take it off to shower because it is on a black cord and I don't want to ruin that cord. I also keep one of his prayer cards in my truck clipped to my visor and one in my bag. I wrap my hand around the necklace when I sleep and I rub my fingers over it throughout the day. The days have yet to get easier as I had hopes they would. I pray that your sister in law is found unharmed. I am also deeply sorry for the loss of your nephew. He was waaaay too young to go. Thank you so much for reading about my son and for taking the time to comment. Love you too!! 😙🌈🌹🌻

Jul 20Reply

star_gazer99 @jenniferf76 I understand this! You are so right! God bless!

Jul 20Reply

mands13 I'm deeply sorry for your loss. He's such a handsome young man <3

Jul 20Reply

kaleyheider I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers. I hate that some people don't take mental illness seriously, being someone who struggles with different things myself and have had some of my own hard times dealing with it & the misunderstandings my heart truly goes out to you and your family.💗

Jul 20Reply

warmothally So sorry for your loss, rest in peace, Kyle.

Jul 20Reply

jenniferf76 @kaleyheider I am keeping you in my prayers sweetheart!! I myself have had battles with mental illness, major depression & anxiety. I was hospitalized several years ago because I told my doctor I needed help because I was suicidal. Mental illnesses are real illnesses just like diabetes and cancer are real. Some people unfortunately think that you can just "think your way out if it". Those people are the ones who are are uneducated about mental illnesses. That is one of the reasons why I feel I must spread awareness and educate as many as I can. My son had to live in this world full of stigma. People thought and even said bad things about him when they didn't even know him. My son was very kind, loving, loyal, & generous. He was always willing to help people too. I have to educate people so that others can hopefully be free of that stigma someday. I am doing this for the honor of my son and for people like you who have to face that stigma. It's difficult enough battling a mental illness without others looking at you strange or thinking the wrong things about you. I will continue to pray that the Lord give you the strength to make it through whatever it is you are dealing with. Have faith sweetie!!! If you get to a point where you feel like it's too much to handle then please please get help. I am here if you need to talk. I promise I will never place judgement on you!!! Hang in there!!! 😙🌈🌻🌹💖

Jul 20Reply

lacci916 I'm so sorry

Jul 20Reply

closetenvy2 @jenniferf76 You're welcome. Just know that it will get better, but you have got to find a therapy group where you can meet other parents who have lost children. My brother would have probably killed himself without that help. It was bad! There was a lot of guilt associated. They started their own therapy group after they started going. My parents did the same thing. It's very therapeutic. I also went to these groups. There were many parents there that had kids that took their lives. Almost every one of them said they would have taken their lives without the help. Don't let yourself get to that point. Hopefully you haven't already. Even if you have to start your own group, do it. It will help you heal. We just had them come to our home and would fix things like Taco Soup or inexpensive meals and just sit and talk. You could always tell which ones were struggling, so we'd focus on them. I could go on for hours about that, but I'll stop, lol. The jist of that is that knowing you've helped others heal will bring you peace. ☺

Jul 20Reply

kimberfox Thank you for your courage to share your broken heart to educate others. I understand loss and understand that kind of pain. But even so, It's something that can't be described or even attempted to be understood by another. I pray that you find comfort and joy in helping others. You're not alone.

Jul 20Reply

luzmabh @jenniferf76 My heart and my prayers are with you and your family👏

Jul 20Reply

jsantillo @jenniferf76 Sorry for your loss.. my brother committed suicide as well when he was 17.- R.I.P.

Jul 20Reply

jburns1335 @jenniferf76 I am so sorry for your pain and loss. Our 8 year old adopted son is receiving psychiatric care now. His birth mom is bi-polar so we don't know what his future will bring. Trying very hard to deal with this. It affects our entire life and family. I pray for us and for you.

Jul 21Reply

bkcline718 What a handsome young lad. My sincere condolences. May he rest in peace. 🙏

Jul 22Reply

downtowntiger @jenniferf76 Very very sorry for your indescribable loss. God bless you as you open eyes and hearts.

Jul 22Reply

lanamomof4 @jenniferf76 very good looking young men . Im very sorry for your loss 😢

Jul 22Reply

jenniferf76 @lindseyann5213 @bltjunior Thank so much!!! I am truly grateful!!!! This helps to spreaf awareness about schizophrenia!! 😘😘💖💖🌈🌈🌻🌻🌹🌹

Jul 22Reply

havenb1 I am deeply sorry for your loss

Jul 22Reply

awolsista God blessed his soul. I can't imagine the agony of losing one of my children but I sit here in tears over your loss. He is happy & healthy now & you will meet again.

Jul 22Reply

mrs_wheeler 😇🙏

Jul 23Reply

minablack @jenniferf76 💜My Heart going out to you! He's now a angel in heaven😇I truly understand in mental illness. My Mom battle it for years and still is.... It's so hard to see a love one go though it. My mom was court order and lock up in a state facility for a serval months and I took care of her when she got out none of my family members would help my sister & brother told me they had their own families to take care of😞 now she is much better she gets a injection and takes other anti-Depressions to help battle her moods. She is living on her own now In a Ret. community. God Bless you🙏I am truly sorry for your loss. 💜Liz💜

Jul 24Reply

myin2828 I am so so sorry for the lost of your precious son. My heart goes out to you and your family... Please take care. He will always be in your heart and in your memories....

Jul 25Reply

araines4 Thank you for sharing. I'm a nurse and we studied this disorder and read a book called Lucy the life of a schiophrenic. I live in chattanooga where she stayed in a mental institution and we were able to work there a few weeks.

Jul 26Reply

nimfas So sorry for your loss.

Jul 26Reply

curlgirl312 So sorry for your loss!!! My brother passed in 2008. He was hit by a car walking home. I cannot imagine the pain you feel but know, as I do, that he would want you to be happy!!! Keep living.. God bless you and Ty for sharing!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️🙏🙏

Jul 28Reply

andreanna25 I'm so sorry, may he rest in peace. I hope you have some peace and comfort as well.

Jul 28Reply

dallize May he rest in peace there are no words my dear for the pain of losing a child is unbearable I know how it feels may god bless you and your family 😘😘

Jul 30Reply

jenniferf76 @plainjane_82 Yes that was a photo of my son. Thank you! This is his story, I try to share so I can spread awareness!

Jul 31Reply

bella4 @jenniferf76 so terribly sorry for the loss of your baby. One could never recover from such a thing. God bless you and your family. He is an angel

Aug 02Reply

bthereasap I'm so so sorry💐 My condolences💕

Aug 03Reply

creationcentral I'm so sorry for your loss! He was so strong to have made it so long with schizophrenia! I learned a lot about it just from my own personal reading I do about different mental illnesses, he held on as long as he could and he did a great job. He will always love you and he will always be in our hearts ❤️

Aug 04Reply

ommommy I am so very sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace and may God give you strength.

Aug 04Reply

gaylee God Bless you! I lost my first son in a tragic accident. He would have been 24 next month! Have you heard of compassionate friends USA - a support group for parents/siblings who have lost children! They are nation wide. I know your pain!

Aug 04Reply

jenniferf76 @gaylee First let me say, I am so terribly sorry for your loss!! Losing a child is a pain and loss like no other!! I know saying I'm sorry doesn't change anything, but I do know it lets you know others care. Honestly, there are no words that can help ease the pain of a mothers broken heart from the loss of their child, their baby! Though it is nice knowing how compassionate and kind others can be! No I have never heard of that group you mentioned. I will definitely have to check into it. I have been struggling to stay strong for my other 2 boys. The loss of my son has changed me in certain ways. Some for the better and some for the worse! The depression is the some for the worse part! This has brought me closer to God which definitely is for the better. The Lord gives me the strength I need to make it out of bed each day!! The people at the church I have started attending have been so wonderful. There's a few there who have also lost children so they understand the kind of pain I feel. The one mother had a son just like mine, a schizophrenic who committed suicide so she really gets it. I'm trying to spread awareness every place I go, but I have to admit that sometimes I feel like a wrench is twisting my heart. I just breakdown in tears! Regardless of how much it hurts I still must continue spreading that awareness for the honor of my son and in hopes that I help at least one person out there!! I truly believe that this is the path God has chosen for me at this point in my life. I just pray that as time goes on my broken heart will start to mend even though I know there will always be an empty place in it. You have no idea how much I deeply and truly appreciate you taking a few moments of your time to read about my son and to comment!!! I am so touched by all the wonderful posh women who have shown me their caring heart!!

Aug 04Reply

gaylee I promise you time and God make life better! Once you you get the shoulda & couldas out of your mind through church, therapy, and simply forgiving yourself, you will be better! Each day is a new start! The Compassionate Friends helps a lot! Just know that you will find joy and laugh again!

Aug 04Reply

kma0911_ @jenniferf76 he is not hurting anymore. I am very familiar with mental illness as it runs rampant in my family. I have struggled my whole life of 39 years and was recently diagnosed with a trio none the less of extreme ADHD, OCD AND ASPBERGERS. There is hope!!!

Aug 04Reply

frogs4me430 I'm sorry for your loss. My sons father suffered from mental illness & committed suicide this year on Fathers Day. He was in the Army & had PTSD. I think it's wonderful for you to try & educate people by putting a face to this disease. You & your family are in my prayers! I'm from Baltimore myself but moved away a few years ago. Do you still live there?

Aug 05Reply

jenniferf76 @frogs4me430 Thank you so much and I am so terribly sorry about your loss. My sons father committed suicide over 4 1/2 yrs ago from mental illness as well. I don't live in Baltimore anymore. Moved from there almost 10 yrs ago. I still have family and friends there though. I live in TX now and getting ready to move to VA.

Aug 05Reply

marykat @jenniferf76 💕 Hi Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss, I can only imagine your how heart broken you are. You are so right people do need to educate themselves, I hate the label crazy person! I will pray for you and your family, as for Kyle is in GODs hands. @tmc3526 @janet0103 @bkimh Ladies when you can, please send love and prayers Jennifer's way🙏

Aug 05Reply

tmc3526 Thanks@marykat for the tag😘. You will be in our prayers. So sorry. I will help spread the word and help educate people.

Aug 05Reply

janet0103 @jenniferf76 I'm so sad to hear of your loss. My young nephew was the same way. He now lives in Heaven. It is a very serious disease. We will never understand why or how they were feeling but by the Grace of God-they are both healed now! God Bless your broken heart🙏

Aug 05Reply

janet0103 @marykat Thank you Mary.

Aug 05Reply

graceprovisions @jenniferf76 Wow what a powerful story Jennifer! My grandma had schizophrenia and I agree 100%. Not only are there a lot of stigmas surrounding mental illness but society only alienates those who have this disease worsening their condition instead of brightening their futures.

Aug 06Reply

fashionfever88 i'm so sorry for your loss, will keep you and your family in my prayers @jenniferf76 <3 <3 <3 <3

Aug 06Reply

islandgoddess He is beautiful!!!

Aug 06Reply

keg90 @jenniferf76 ❤️ my heart breaks for you. My son is no longer with us either. He was murdered nearly 6 yrs ago at the age of 20 & it breaks our heart. So cruel & traumatizing. We too, try to raise awareness about Violence, & the Victims & Families left behind. The hole left can never be filled 💔 but our boys do want us to help others & so we must. Feel free to chat anytime- & I am happy to give you a good deal any time you would like. ❤️❤️

Aug 06Reply

jenniferf76 @keg90 Oh my Kim I am speechless and crying! You are the 2nd mom within the last 30 mins maybe less who has told me that they lost their child, a son. I am beyond words right now! All I know to say at this moment is I am so so terribly sorry!!! This isn't the way it should work. Parents should not outlive their babies. In the past 2 weeks I met 2 women at my church who also lost their sons. 😭😭😭😭 I can't imagine the anger you must have felt in addition to the pain. Please tell me the murderer was caught and is behind bars. Please tell me that is true!!! I pray to God that you and your family already have closure and that you are healing from such a tragidy. Your baby is Heaven with mine!!! I believe that sometimes certain people are meant to meet. I definitely believe it was fate for us to cross paths!! And I think what you are doing, spreading awareness is absolutely wonderful!!! The more awareness each of us can spread about our cause, means that the world will be that much better in the long run, at least I sure hope it will be!!! In the meantime I am hurting not only for the loss of my son, but for the loss of your son and the loss of every other child of the parents I have met. You are all in my prayers. May the good Lord bring you strength, peace, comfort, & joy in each day. May Jesus wrap his arms around all of us who have lost a child. And may God ease our pain and mend our torn hearts as each day passes. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this Kim and for sharing your story with me. You really have no idea how much it truly means to me. It lets me know that I can survive this regardless of how much pain I am in. 😙🌈🌻🌹💐💖

Aug 06Reply

keg90 :/ hugs

Aug 06Reply

susanzar12 I am so sorry for your loss.

Aug 06Reply

supermom23 I'm so sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace

Aug 06Reply

needeebees Handsome young man and very brave of you to bring awareness. I'm also very sorry for your loss but very happy you are educating others through it. It must be a very hard situation to go through and I give you a standing ovation my dear 😘😘 thank you

Aug 06Reply

jenniferf76 @needeebees Thank you so very much!!! It has been very hard!! I am so happy though to be spreading awareness and educating others. I believe it is what God wants me to do and I want to do this for my son. I can't and won't allow my sons suicide be for nothing! I will make sure that something good comes from his death, my loss, and my pain. I'm not advocating and fighting for better research as much as I would like to be right. I think my heart needs to finish greiving first. Once it does, look out world because I am coming full force with awareness and advocation!!! Michelle I just want to say thank you so much for reading my sons story and for leaving such an encouraging message!! I am so appreciative of that. I wish all of those who stop to read my sons story knew how much it really means to me!!! I feel like every time someone reads this it helps keep my sons memory alive that much more and it helps me to honor him by spreading awareness about schizophrenia!!! I cannot express in words how truly grateful I am!! Thank you again!!! 😙🌈🌻🌹💐💖

Aug 06Reply

needeebees 😘😘

Aug 06Reply

chloe333 May god bless you and yours. My grandmother is manic depressive schizophrenic. Its terrible to watch and even harder to understand. Take comfort in those sweet little boys. Your Kyle will be looking down on them😇

Aug 07Reply

msbuttafly @jenniferf76 💟 Just came across your profile. Sorry to hear about your son & know he is in a much better place. My prayers goes out to you & your family! 💟

Aug 07Reply

myspoiledwife It's very nice in the way you are honoring your son in his memory by spreading not only schizophrenia but hopefully all suicide/mental awareness disorders. I'm sorry this has happened and continues too in other families unfortunately. Your family will be in our prayers as well as our thoughts as you continue to begin a journey of healing. Always remember to keep the "faith" with God above. Kyle was taken for a purpose only God knows yet we don't understand. Kyle was very special and God was calling. Also, I believe your son does watch over you and help you get stronger as he is now your "angel" until you are united again. Stay strong for your other children but grieve as you need. We too have had a similar incident with our son being in a coma fighting for life for five days (suicide/OD) and later was told they lost him en route...it's not easy to think about and we don't talk about it much....I guess it's hard to accept nor understand unless we give it to God. I now just try to leave all my stressors with our Lord or things would be to overwhelming for me to carry, and live the best we know how...as life is to short and fragile so we must try our best in what we do. I commend you with sharing both issues and advocating in children/young adults on suicides & schizophrenia/mental illness taboo as well researching as they need us as parents. We too need the right skills to help them live a productive life by the help of doctors, specialists, and those trained that we reach out to. My biggest point is never give up on your dream on "Kyle's Angel" watching over you and helping you alongside on the research and give the rest to God in faith! God bless you, your family, and all those that have/had suffered from such. 😢😇

Aug 09Reply

kutterbest You have NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANT TO ME.. I STOPPED AND SAID A PRAYER OF BLESSING FOR You.. My son too has a mental illness that most people don't see to be nor realize and understand what it's lie.. He's severe manic depressive bipolar escalates into schizophrenia. Especially under duress or a stress he can't control and the full moon. I almost lost him several times.. Self medicated and put himself in people's way to make them kill him as he laughs telling they wouldn't because they saw in his eyes he was crazier than the bad people were.. Long long story and lot of tears and heartaches involved as I am sure you dealt with too. I have lived in fear for years now of wondering how long I will have him.. He is better right now after rescuing him from running off to Costa Rica and again to Dallas he lived in my house a year which almost cost me my husband ( his father is dead)! I had been married two years when I finally got far enough to get him over here and another month I would've lost my husband.. Imam now very ill and my son lives nearby and I think his needing to know he HAS to take care of me is healing him.. But when the moon is a super moon like tonight's is. The intensity of the pull on his brain is so great he will stay in the bed door locked to avoid people being around him to prevent him from hurting someone including himself because he said during these times, he has no feelings at all.. He says hurting or anger or any thing is better than dead feelings.. I have just been so down about knowing he will be 39 this year and don't think he will ever be a true self functioning self providing adult l but when I saw your post it put chills all over me!., and once again i pray , I don't know how much longer I will have him but I pray for him today and all he comes in contact with and for the beginning of tomorrow and now in perspective of this is 39 years I have had him ... Good bad UGLY tears, anger much love and able to touch and hug him no matter what and all YOU HAVE IS PICTURES... FROM ONE MOTHER OF A SON TO ANOTHER SWEET LADY I LOVE YOU ... AND THANK YOU FORMTHIS POST... 🙏🙏🙏💓💓😘

Aug 11Reply

jenniferf76 @kutterbest Oh Dear Sweet Robin, I am so glad you found this post of my son. I am so truly sorry to hear about what you are going thru and about the torment your son suffers from such a horrible illness. Taking care of someone with such a severe mental illness is very exhausting and stressful. And of course I know this from personal experience with my son. My sons father is also deceased, suicide due to mental illness. My son would have never been able to live on his own as an adult. His illness was too severe unfortunately! Thank you so so much for the prayer and for reaching out to me with your heart breaking comment. As I read about your son I cried for you both and my heart felt so heavy with pain. I wish there was something more I could do to help. Not only do I want to spread awareness & educate others on mental illnesses and suicide, but I also want to find a way to raise money to donate to research for schizophrenia & bipolar disorder. I pray for a cure and I pray for better treatment options until that cure comes. My son wasn't able to be saved and I suffer an unbearable amount of heartache, but I am faithful that what I am doing in honor of my son will help or save at least one person. I am trying hard to open peoples eyes to these illnesses so the stigma that surrounds them comes to a halt. Mental illness is difficult enough for someone to deal with without all the stigma, strange looks from others, & whispers behind their backs. All of that is added stress on the mentally ill. Instead of stigma and all of that, I want to see people reaching out to lend a hand. I am really saddened by what you and your son are going thru. I will continue praying for you both!!! If you need to talk I am always willing to lend an ear!! I am here for you if and when you need me!!! Keep faith that your son is going to make it!! You're in my heart and in my prayers!!! I love you!!! 🙇🙇🙇😙😙😙🌈🌞🌈🌞💖💞

Aug 11Reply

jewoods7 @jenniferf76 - Jennifer, I am so sorry for your loss! I've been an RN for 21+ years, and started out in Psych. People don't/won't understand mental illness & it breaks my heart! My daughter is Bipolar with Borderline Personality Disorder and I'm scared for she & my granddaughter every day. She gets so depressed she cuts & over-medicates; been hospitalized a few times (even during her own daughter's 3rd X-Mas)! My heart goes out to you and you're in my prayers - NEVER stop telling people your story!!

Aug 12Reply

fatlucy @jenniferf76 hello Jennifer I'm so sorry for your lost , I read somewhere that the most intense pain a human can experience is when a mother looses her child I don't even have the right words so I will let the BIBLE speak in the book of REVELATION 21 3,4 we read " with that I heard I loud voice from the throne of GOD is with mankind anHE will reside with them and they will be his people, and GOD himself will be with them and he will wipe out every tear from their eyes and DEATH WiLL BE NO MORE neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore the former things have passed away" I love this scripture because it talk of a future time when our love ones who have passed away will be resurrected because they are in GOD's memory so have hope you will see him again .

Aug 19Reply

jenniferf76 @fatlucy Thank you so much!! That is so beautiful.

Aug 19Reply

kristikreations I read what you said and read the poem to my husband. I had to stop half way through the poem because i just burst out into tears. My heart aches for your loss. I could not imagine what you are going through. I suffer from depression so I do understand that aspect of mental illness. With another mental illness on top of that I can only imagine that it would be very tough to deal with. It has to be very hard on you and your family. I have a son that is 23 and a daughter 19. Children are a gift from God! Your son has to be so proud of you for bringing awareness to mental illness and explaining what the disease does to you. I am sorry to go on and on. I am usually at a loss for words when it comes to something this tragic. He is so handsome!!! I will Pray for you and your family. One day you will be with him again. What a day that will be! You sound like a very loving Mom and I myself am very proud that you are bringing awareness to mental illness. It is very misunderstood. God bless you and your family!!!

Aug 19Reply

jenniferf76 @bamagirl017 Thank you so much!! I need all the prayers I can get. I've had my bouts of depression in the past, but the loss of my Kyle not only has me depressed, it has also left me with a heart so broken that I can't put it into words. It truly is the worst feeling I have ever felt. I miss him so much and it may end up being a long time before I am reunited with him. Once I have it in me, I plan on doing more to spread awareness to mental illnesses and also advocating for more research. I don't mind if you leave long messages. It touches my heart that there are many women on here like you who take the time to read about my sons story and then leave a comment. I appreciate so much more than any one of you realizes. So feel free to comment all your heart desires. I will always read each one!! 😙🌈🌻🌹🌞💖

Aug 19Reply

krissy007 @jenniferf76 hi, I'm so sorry to se this it is hitting home really really hard. My younger brother is 22 and Has severe paranoid schizophrenia . This story is without a doubt my biggest an worst nightmare. now with him coming down on his halodol the voices are even worse and this is becoming and even more real fear. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain and heartache you are feeling I don't know how I would be able to cope. I'm so so sorry and wish I could reach out to you and give you a hug if there's anything I Can do for you please let me know ❤❤❤ @mandavais ⬆⬆😭😭

Aug 20Reply

mrsalliexo Wow, I'm so sorry for your loss 😓 this is so sad

Aug 21Reply

platinummermaid @jenniferf76 oh Jennifer 😢 my heart absolutely breaks for you!!! As a mother of 4 sons I can only imagine the pain of losing a child let alone to an illness that is so misunderstood. I will keep your family in my prayers. I pray that lord blesses you with comfort and peace! I am here if you ever need to vent. 💗

Aug 23Reply

pinpoint @jenniferf76, I'm 46 with bipolar/depression on meds. I can somewhat relate to the disease(s). May God bless you and your family. I pray you can find some kind of peace but knowing he is with his Lord and wrapped in God's love, he isn't suffering anymore. There is only love. Renee

Aug 23Reply

pumpkingutssss My condolences. Keep your head up and he is def watching over you proud of the mother u are. I have a very close friend who suffers from this as well. And at their darkest moments its crucial to be there for them. Thank you for educating others with your story. God bless.

Aug 23Reply

stjoenurse @jenniferf76 God Bless you - may he keep you strong - you were lucky to have him for 19 years - cherish those beautiful memories - I hope your post helps others under schizophrenia.

Aug 27Reply

margo97 I am so very sorry for your loss. My uncle had Schizophrenia and took his life. My neighbors daughter was diagnosed a little over a year ago and took her life a few weeks ago. Metal illness is devastating and not talk about. I am a nurse training in mental health first aid, we need to make this a national conversation.

Aug 30Reply

margo97 Out of the Darkness is a great organization bringing awareness about suicide and mental illness.

Aug 30Reply

jenniferf76 @margo97 Thank you so much! I couldn't agree with you more about making mental health a national conversation. People need to be educated on this subject.

Aug 30Reply

chiefofstyle @jenniferf76 I am so sorry for your loss. I appreciate your spreading this very important message and allowing us to honor your son with you. I know that saying, "He's in a better place" is rarely comforting, but I truly hope you feel comfort in knowing that his life and passing were not in vain because you're keeping his memory alive and spreading awareness about the illness that he struggled with. I wish you and your family much love, light, and continued healing. 💖🌟🙏

Aug 30Reply

nightroad @jenniferf76 Prayer for you and your family! It's very brave of u to share this with us! Thanks for that! Lots of love your way...💕💕

Aug 30Reply

livvielove This took my breath away. Bless him, and bless you. Prayers. xo

Aug 30Reply

meganchild2 God bless you and love you. ! You will see him again! He is with Hod in Heaven! Stay strong!

Aug 30Reply

jh0wie @jenniferf76 I am very sorry for the loss of your handsome son :( it brought tears to my eyes when I read some of the comments ;( stay strong <3

Aug 31Reply

sjpaque @jenniferf76 - hey beautiful lady - I'm thinking of you and hope you're having a good day. You're in my prayers. Enjoy your moms company and don't work too hard moving and eat, eat, eat. Lol. Happy Tuesday

Sep 02Reply

ladytexan Handsome

Sep 07Reply

chellebelle624 My sister also completed suicide 3 years ago. She was 17 years old. She was never diagnosed with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder, however we know there was something much deeper going on with her. The stigma associated with mental illness and suicide is a huge problem. I love that you are spreading awareness. I'll keep you in my prayers, I'm so sorry for your loss

Sep 08Reply

ashnuge I'm terribly sorry for your loss. I lost my brother when he was 18 from an accidental drug overdose. People assumed he was an addict, when in truth he was just a kid with his friends testing out drugs. Unfortunately he had heart disease and his heart couldn't take it. He went peacefully in his sleep. I truly believe the best way to honor our angels is by making people aware of what they are blind to. I love this post and I hope my brother meets your son in heaven. :)

Sep 08Reply

123eloise 💔

Sep 13Reply

mish815 S.I.P Kyle

Sep 13Reply

mk4 I'm so sorry for your loss, I know the pain never goes away, it just eases. But I hope you find comfort knowing that you will see him again one day. I too lost my second child as a newborn, that was 13 years ago. But that hollow space still remains in my heart. God bless you and your family and thank you for your efforts in trying to educate people about this mental disease. Have a blessed day🙏🌹

Sep 15Reply

debbie1968 Wow am so sorry! My third child his father committed suicide and my boyfriend of Seven years has recently been diagnosed. Its scary and had also been creeper out because of his strange behavior. Thank God for you and for you being here to help others you are a true blessing. Take care Debbie

Sep 16Reply

oliviashaven Your son, such a handsome young man. Thank you so much for sharing your story, I pray God give you all the strength. I also thank you for raising awareness about mental health. It cannot be emphasized enough how big a difference each one of us can make in each others' lives. We just need to take a time out and reach out. That's all it takes. God bless you, love. Know that your efforts to help raise mental health awareness are much appreciated. ❤️🌺😘

Sep 20Reply

missmeek77 @jenniferf76 AS I READ THIS POSTING I PRAY FOR YOUR STRENGTH! I pray you remember the good times and take them .. So they can warm your heart with joy. I can't imagine the pain you are experiencing, I can only imagine the joys of you being a mother. You have and will always make the best decision when it comes to your son. I wrap my arms around you from a distance to help you be strong and grow.. Get the word out in memory of your son!! May He Rest in Paradise!

Sep 27Reply

starisoverit Apparently they went off when it was delivered to the wrong address but you enjoy that 15 dollars apparently you need it more than I did

Oct 06Reply

mcjayne @jenniferf76 Jennifer thank you for sharing such a personal thing. God bless you and I pray he will give you comfort. ❤️to you and yours.

Oct 08Reply

christinenwcstl I'm So sorry what happened to your son. I can not imagine losing a child but I know it must be hard. I had a close family member that decided to end their life because of this disease also.. . . And it was so hard everyday to see her mind torment her. I know she is in a much happier place now. And she will forever live on in much needed peace. Thanks so much for spreading awareness...

Oct 08Reply

elizmul @jenniferf76...SO sorry for your loss...I have a best friend who went thru losing her daughter...our daughters were best friends too! I know the pain my best friend went thru...it was devastating to her...to me to watch cause I felt so hopeless for her...not always knowing what to say and afraid I might say something wrong...AND THEN...having to console my daughter who's best friend at 7 yrs old just died one day while out playing and running around one minute then having a heart attack the next...none of us understood...WHY!?!? It's been 10 years now...the pain has lessened but still hurts. My daughter is graduating from high school this year and a little part of me felt guilty that Savannah wasn't joining her in this moment...heading off to college together and having boy troubles together. We cry every year her birthday comes around. I just wanted to share this with you to let you know...YOUR NOT ALONE. My thoughts and prayers are with you sweet lady. I understand your pain as best as I can...it is not an easy thing to just move past. Take it one day at a time. Continue talking about it...it's actually very healing and don't shut yourself off from those loved ones whose hearts are in the right place...even when they might say things they don't understand hurt! Not sure where your faith is in God...but for my friend and our family He is the only reason why we push on...cause we know in our heart of hearts we will see Savannah again. That's our belief. Whatever yours is...find strength in it! With much love & prayers, Elizabeth ♡

Oct 13Reply

kishabank So sorry to hear about your son sending lots of prayers and wishing many blessings to you and your family

Oct 14Reply

keg90 @jenniferf76 / I am sorry about the date coming up, I know how difficult it is. The days leading up can be the most difficult. I will keep you in my thoughts & let me know about you are doing.

Oct 15Reply

rainae So sorry for the loss of your son. May God forever hold you in you're weakest moments. Mental illness is real & I pray for those who suffer from it. God bless you all.

Oct 18Reply

ashleyloves11 @jenniferf76 thank you for sharing your story, you are incredibly strong, thank you for raising awareness to the important issues of Sui use and mental health, you're right people don't really understand. I'm sorry for your loss and your family's loss you'll all be in my prayers

Oct 18Reply

jsantillo @jenniferf76 I'm so sorry to hear about this. My brother Ryan too committed suicide at 17. And I couldn't believe when I read the back of this card because Ryan had those same exact words on his funeral cards too! Just so beautiful. He is in a happier place now, that's what I keep having to remember, and you will see him again.

Oct 23Reply

sassysuzzy Thank you for sharing your heart & your beautiful Kyle. I am a Licensed Psychotherapist & this story needs to be told. Broken hearts & wounded souls but amazing people. It is a disease of the brain & thank you for bringing awareness to that. He is one handsome young man. He will be waiting at Heavens Gate when you get there!

Oct 25Reply

tangibletakes My heart aches for you. So sorry you lost him to such an awful illness. So young and handsome! Prayers for you and your family. 🙏🙏. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with so many and the courage to shed light on the illness. There's not enough help for our children who suffer.

Oct 26Reply

tship @jenniferf76 it runs in my family. So I understand completely. God bless you and your family. 🙏

Oct 28Reply

heathershu Hey girlfriend , how are you doing? Haven't heard a peep out of you , came by to see how you are and did you move??!! Please LMK how you are doing 💗

Nov 02Reply

sjpaque @jenniferf76 - thinking about you so much girl - May God keep you close today and every day...

Nov 02Reply

kerbrdhrst @jenniferf76 Sorry to hear about your loss. Your son was a blessing who has gone home. Although im sure you are homesick you are needed by many who need help or compassion in understanding not only the disease but how family members cope and care for a loved one with the disease. Im guessing it was a rollercoaster ride. Im not convinced that there is a cure but rather meds offered to quell the symptoms. This is a frustrating experience in adjusting and trying so many treatments. But i do believe that love above all is the best cure. At points of normalcy in your sons life i can guarentee he knew he was loved!!! This being the most important part of life.... i congratulate you on a job well done in love and patience!!!! He knew he was loved. And through all the ups amd downs thats all that truly mattered. Spread the word of patience and love that These people desperately need.

Nov 02Reply

jenniferf76 HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KYLE!!! I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND I MISS YOU IMMENSELY!!! 😢🎂🎈🎁😙💖😙💖😙

Nov 03Reply

lrb0889 @jenniferf76 He and I had the same birthday :) I had an aunt with the same disease. I know exactly what you mean, as far as people not understanding. Theres so many negative stigmas! Which is sad, in this day in age. I hope you're getting along alright! God Bless!

Nov 04Reply

lrb0889 @jenniferf76 Im addition to my aunt having the disease, my life long friend committed suicide last month. So i know exactly what its like. I wouldnt wish these awful diseases upon anyone. Im involved in many support groups. Feel free to get ahold of me if you need someone to chat with!

Nov 04Reply

deebutterflies 🙏my heart and prayers go out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story.

Nov 04Reply

klearyzzzz So much love..

Nov 08Reply

51twenty Gasp! I know it can't be easy losing your son at such an early age to a terrible illness. I cannot imagine what that feels like- I too am a mom of a 15 yo son. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I know it can be hard to find comfort or to keep going. I usually turn to the bible for comfort. It helps to know that God will be there to help me. (Jas. 4:8). The bible also mentions we will see our loved ones again!😄 Daniel 5: 28,29..."in the near future all of those in their memorial tombs will come out"! Yes! The resurrection strengthens our HOPE! God did not create us simply to die... There's so much more he has in store... I don't want to be winded on something I wanted to share with you. But I sincerely hope look to HIM and believe his promises. I'll check on you soon and share your story..🌸🌸🌸🌸 Carolyn @dressyu

Nov 09Reply

jenniferf76 @kookc Thank you so much!! It has been extremely difficult. If not for my other 2 boys and my family, I don't think I would survive the loss. I pray to God often and I pray especially hard during my roughest moments. I believe that only God can comfort me in a time like this. I know my son is no longer suffering, that he is at peace, but it doesn't make me miss him any less, nor does it relieve any of the pain I feel. I try to put on a brave face and pretend to be handling things with strength, but inside I feel like I am dying. I hear people say it takes time, but honestly I believe there will always be a hole in my heart and in my life. I don't think a parent, especially a mother ever gets over losing a child, we only learn to continue life without them because we have to. God has been my strength and always will be. Thank you again for reaching out to me. It is so greatly appreciated.

Nov 09Reply

51twenty Not everyone expresses grief the same way, but repressing your feelings can harm you both physically and emotionally. It is far healthier to express your grief. How? Talking can certainly help. Talking to a "true companion" who will listen patiently can help bring a measure of relief. Even crying can be a helpful release. Shedding tears is a part of the healing process. Romans 12:15 says: rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. -Never feel embarrassed about crying. It's a natural and necessary part of grieving. Proverbs 34:18 -"God is near to those who are broken at heart; and those who are crushed in spirit he saves". Applying these suggestions from the bible/GOD supplies can help you cope. 🌺🌺🌺🌺Thinking of you. - Carolyn

Nov 11Reply

daliasg Hi Jennifer. I read your last post and my heart breaks for you. The suffering you are experiencing is unfathomable. Please do not try to put on a brave face. Lean on everyone and anyone you can. And try not to think about how you will feel long term. Take everyday one step at a time. It's too overwhelming to expect yourself to completely heal from the tragic loss of your son. Please try not to put that pressure on yourself. I am thinking of you and praying for you. XOXOXO

Nov 13Reply

51twenty Thinking of you today..💐🌷💐🌷 @dressyu

Nov 13Reply

mrsmadariaga @jenniferf76 My prayers and condolences are with your family. I understand living with mental illness as my brother is bipolar and my mother is manic depressive. I lived that world forever so my heart goes out to you. Hopefully your don has now found peace and the rest if your family can try yo do the sand knowing he's at ease now. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Nov 13Reply

atthebeach2000 God bless

Nov 15Reply

theorphanage I'm so sorry!!! I wanted to comment though- my brother also suffered from S. He struggled his entire life- in and out of treatment facilities. He took my fathers life then committed suicide when we staged an intervention to get him help ( he was over 18 at the time - so getting him to accept help was nearly impossible. I spend my free time volunteering for NAMi to help spread awareness. God bless you and your son. You and your family will be in my prayers!!!-a

Nov 18Reply

jenniferf76 @abigailswim I am so deeply sorry for your double loss. My heart sank when I read what you wrote. It is a very difficult disease for all involved. We can only try to understand what life is like for the person who has this disease. For me, I have never blamed my son for taking his own life because I know he tried his best to live with the illness, but it was too much to handle. I honestly believe that if I were in his shoes I wouldn't have lasted as long as he did so I know he was so strong and brave. And like your brothers life, my sons would have continued to be the same, in and out of psych hospitals. If you think about it, would you want to live like that? My son had paranoid schizophrenia so when he was placed in the hospital I know he was terrified. He was refusing meds because he swore they were trying to poison him. And when he would shower, he said that he could see through the wall and a man dressed in white would stare at him. My heart was so broken when he had to be admitted after attempting suicide. I knew he had to be there, but I was so worried about something bad happening to him and I was filled with grief over how miserable my child had to feel. Your work with NAMi is a blessing to so many. I admire you and what you are doing. It takes a strong person to turn around and bring something good from such a horrific tragedy. Mental illnesses are misunderstood by the general public. There needs to be so much more awareness and understanding of these illnesses. Thank you for being a part of a force who is trying to change that. I'm sure both your father and brother would be proud. My family and I are trying to spread awareness too so if you have any helpful tips or ideas, I'm all ears. Thank you again and may God bless you and your family.

Nov 18Reply

jenniferf76 @daliasg @kookc Thank you so much!! Things have been like a rollercoaster. My youngest son turned 5 on Oct. 27th and then 6 days later was my Kyles birthday. Last year he spent his birthday and Thanksgiving in a state psych hospital so it's been really heart wrenching for me. I'm torn not only over not having him here physically for the holidays, but over the fact that he had to spend his last birthday and last Thanksgiving in a strange, uncomfortable place instead of at home where he belonged. Family visited him for both, but it still wasn't the same. I had a breakdown yesterday. I honestly don't feel like celebrating Thanksgiving. We are spending it with my husbands family, but I would rather just be with me side of the family during the holidays. I just feel like curling up in bed and staying there, but thankfully I have 2 other boys to care for. My mom keeps trying to get me to call a doctor for an antidepressant, but I really don't want to add any meds to list of them I'm already on for my disease, plus I don't feel upto going anywhere. I do have moments of happiness once in a great while, but I feel guilty about it. I feel like I'm not supposed to have those moments because I lost a child. I know my son would want me to be happy, but it's hard to be. I never imagined that missing someone or something this much was possible. I honestly don't know what to do about Thanksgiving. I'm not sure if I should just tell my mother in law I feel like I need to be with my parents this year or if I should just keep the plans as is. Thinking about it just causes me to have an anxiety attack. I'm so sorry for all the rambling, I just feel like this is the only place I can get it all out. Thank you so much for being such sweet, kind, and caring women. It's a blessing to have you both to talk to.

Nov 18Reply

51twenty Hi Jennifer! I got your message and will respond soon. You're on my mind a lot

Nov 19Reply

51twenty Hi Jennifer. That is a lot to undertake emotionally with all the decisions that you're facing. Jw dot org has a featured article "Can the bible help me if I'm depressed". Once you go to that website tap on Featured Articles and this one is there. It's a FANTASTIC and encouraging article because it talks about three things God gives generously to help with feelings of depression. I find this really encouraging because I too have not encountered what you are dealing with specifically, but have had tragic things happen in my life including my health. Although the above information may help you tremendously, of course it will be your personal decision on whether to seek medical attention. I know your other two beautiful boys love you so much and would love to see more of your Happy days although that causes you guilt. This article above is something that would help them as well as your husband ALL to deal with your tragedy. Our children feed off of our energy and mood- it's amazing! I also think (imo) that being with your family any day for support or strength is okay. What you are experiencing are normal feelings. And the above article had good examples of others who have endured what you are facing. I hope today my notes remind you that I care and am sincerely thinking about you and want to help you.🌷 Carolyn

Nov 20Reply

mirrors Yes it is very hard for people on the outside who are not aware of the mental disorders my daughter also has bi-polar and schizophrenia so grateful to have her at home she is 21 but has episodes where im unable to help her even with all my love she is in out mostly in a mental hospital im very sorry for the lost of beloved son I've lost 2 sisters on was 3 and the other 28 I still so clearly have lasting memories of them thankful to have had them the time they were here dont let the heaviness of your loss hold you back he set you free to live a life of worry and anxious we do what we can and feel some how responsible thinking we can help or love them enough to not have the illness God is Great he carries us throughout all things that are hard to go through

Nov 24Reply

tmarieknox There is no SORROW heaven can not heal. Lean on our merciful Saviour Jesus Christ because HE cares for you! My prayer for you on this day is that your joy that no one can take away is in the wonderful memories of your precious son Kyle.

Nov 24Reply

colorfuljessica Sending love. TY for sharing. We should all be talking about mental illness so that others can as well. 🌱

Nov 30Reply

51twenty Thinking of you😊

Dec 13Reply

jenniferf76 @kookc Thank you! 😙 It's been really rough, but God is getting me through each day. I hope all is well with you.

Dec 14Reply

51twenty 🌺🌺🌺

Dec 15Reply

sandraa334 as a mother of 4 and grandmother of 2, the thought of losing a child is unimaginable to me. My heart breaks for you and my prayers are with you. God Bless.

Dec 16Reply

jenniferf76 @sandraa334 Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment and for sharing. It has been and continues to be the most difficult thing to go through. My boys are my world and I am devastated over losing one. It has been devastating to my whole family. We are taking it day by day. Thank you again and may the good Lord bless you and your family with the joys of having each other. 😙🌲

Dec 16Reply

sandraa334 Thank you so much for your kind words even during your pain. My son is 22 and the baby of our family. He was in college at Liberty University - 11 hours away from me when he was in an accident and fractured his skull and had bleeding on the brain. They didn't think he would live until I was able to get there. I prayed that he would live long enough for me to say goodbye. I thank God every day that he healed my son and I pray that God heals your heart as well.

Dec 16Reply

jenniferf76 @sandraa334 OMGoodness!! You have brought me to tears!! My heart hurts every time I hear about someone losing or almost losing a child. I can't imagine the agony that you must have felt during those moments. Prayer is a powerful thing and I know the Lord answers when He is in your heart. If not for the grace of God and for my family, I wouldn't have made it out of bed on Thanksgiving. My son spent his last Thanksgiving in a psych hospital plus his birthday which was also last spent in the hospital was on Nov. 2nd. That was a rough month for me. Tomorrow will be 8 months since losing him, but it still feels like yesterday. I am so happy to know that your son healed and you still have him with you. I'm sure there is no need for me to say thank God for your children everyday. I have a feeling you already do. Enjoy your Christmas and as the saying goes "may all be merry and bright". 😙😙😙😙

Dec 16Reply

hertelroller14 @jenniferf76 I am so sorry for your loss, your son is very handsome and you are doing a amazing job spreading awareness by sharing your story! My heart is with you ❤️

Jan 14Reply

missyk5982 @jenniferf76 Hello Jennifer just scrolling through PM and saw your post. I am so sorry to hear about your son Kyle. I too have lost a son to suicide my son Michael took his life July 17th 2005 At the age of 23 he suffered with bipolar for 5 years. It's something I wouldn't want anybody to have to go through! Even though it's been 9 years the pain is still there Michael was my only child.... I reached out to AFSP (American foundation for suicide prevention) and now I am a Board Member for the Louisville Metro Chapter. I use what I've learned to help educate people and try to get the stigma off depression & Suicide. We also have local walks called "out of the darkness" this might be something that you would like to check into. It's a day to remember our loved ones, share our stories and to know we are not alone. Again I am so sorry for the loss of your son.... Thinking of you, Missy Gousha

Jan 28Reply

livealohagrl @jenniferf76 hi Jennifer, what a handsome young man. I am sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you and your family.

Feb 04Reply

stacyesd Hello Posh Sister~~ im too aware of your tragedy as my Own brother was bi- polar so much to the point of starving himself to death. Mental Illness is in 1 of 3 homes theses days & numbers growing stronger as its passed down. I, too, am bi polar but much less affected & I'm on medication that helps. But your so right that people need to educate themselves that we , the mentally ill... Are uncomfortable every single day and must teach ourselves to 'adapt' to life as we see it? No as the world sees it but we just don't completely fit in~ not by a long shot... You My lady are in my prayers!

Feb 05Reply

shady101 You're so strong💞💞💞

Feb 08Reply

sjpaque @jenniferf76 - hope you had a wonderful Easter! Thank goodness summer is around the corner...

Apr 08Reply

jenniferf76 @sjpaque Thank you! I hope your Easter was wonderful too. The smile on my little ones face that morning really brightened my day. Other than that, this month just keeps getting more and more heartbreaking as it gets closer to the 1 year mark of my sons suicide.

Apr 10Reply

jenniferf76 @sjpaque I'm waiting for my parents to make their way up from their FL home to their home in VA. They will be leaving FL in 2 weeks. At times like this I really want to be around not just my kids, but my parents, my siblings, & my nieces & nephews. This is just a really tough month for me.

Apr 10Reply

jenniferf76 @sjpaque This is just a really tough month for me. Once May comes, I'm sure a good bit of this depression will be lifted. The weather has been nice and warm lately which is a plus, less aches and pains. I still have some pain in a few areas, but it's so much better than severe pain all over....Sorry, I've been rambling on, how have you and your kids been? Are you still soldiering through the changes at work?

Apr 10Reply

sjpaque @jenniferf76 - thinking of you girl - hope your family gave great support and you're making it through this month. God Bless

Apr 24Reply

tracychevy1 So sorry for your loss!

Jun 26Reply

hrachal God bless you! My heart is breaking after reading this. Hugs to you! 💞💗💞 Heidi

Jul 24Reply

aegeorge16 @jenniferf76 i am so sorry for your loss. my sister, age 30, was just diagnosed- and it has been devastating. sending lots of positive vibes your way. 💕

Jul 29Reply

teresaposhlove @jenniferf76 I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. My mom has/ had it much worst for 10 years. Finally we got her the right help. After many places that treated her illness. It's one of the most misunderstood Disease. Mom is and always will be in Assisted living. I'm disabled and we could no longer handle her safety issues. God Bless you. Thank you for sharing

Aug 11Reply

kristenvanness @jenniferf76 I am so sorry for your loss! Such a handsome young man! My prayers are with you and your family.

Aug 15Reply

lmpasternack @jenniferf76 oh my good Lord. I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart weeps for you. 😢😢😢

Oct 07Reply

jenniferf76 @lmpasternack Thank you so much! My heart has a missing piece, but I know he is in a better place. I miss him terribly. Thank the Lord for my wonderful family and my 2 other boys who help to keep me grounded. They are such a Blessing!

Oct 07Reply

lmpasternack @jenniferf76 you have such a great attitude. God bless you. And I'm glad you have great boys that keep you grounded and happy.

Oct 07Reply

farrah8 Kyle M. Vukov. Another grieving parent/friend had said the hardest part was not hearing his son's name anymore, but felt better when someone else said his name. So...Kyle, you are remembered. Hugs to you and your mom. The illness doesn't define him. At core, he is your special boy. Always. 💕💕💕

Oct 14Reply

mdwhidden I'm so sorry about your loss. My son was born in 1994, and I cannot imagine the pain of losing him. It's great that you are spreading awareness.

Oct 17Reply

thesilksowsear @jenniferf76 I am a survivor, but there are still days I feel the world would be a better place without me. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can see two sides to this story, the day I went to the ER non-responsive my mother didn’t come. I can’t tell you the hurt I felt over that, we had a big fight the day before I had my suicide attempt.

Nov 24Reply

thesilksowsear @jenniferf76 I will always blame her for making me feel so bad about myself because I’m disabled. My life will always be a question now, but I will rise up, my Poshmark will be the most successful thing I’ve ever had. I’ve been working night and day 24 hours sometimes. I’ve forgiven her, my husband never will, now.....I have that to deal with. May God bless you all richly in your sales this weekend, I hope you have to order immediately! xxxooo

Nov 24Reply